The evolution of timkilcher.com continues - i have now got a super smart ebay shop. i am pretty much selling everything that comes my way - from high end stuff to whetever theyr sell having on the shelf at the salvation army HQ over on quincy street, click on the auctions and see what. OR! Scroll down a bit and look on the right where the shop button is. See that? DOPE NO?

Dope yes! Happy Bidding :)

last nite i dreamed about a baby! so i went on yahoo awnsers:

here is what i have found.

As an object in dreams, a baby or child represents something that requires great care and attention. The meaning can change depending on whether it is your original responsibility or one that has been passed off on you by someone else. These dreams may also have wish-fulfilment content for women who are in their childbearing years.
If the baby was pretty, you will be fortunate through the help of friends. However, if the baby was ugly or in any way displeasing to you, look out for treachery in someone you are inclined to trust. Helpless or sick babies are generally a warning of difficulties ahead, so be cautious in your business and/or or love affairs. A walking baby indicates sudden independence, and if you dreamed of many babies, great satisfaction and happiness are coming your way.

1. A new world, a new life, promising new enterprises.

2. Youth, innocence.

3. An upcoming birth in the dreamer's immediate circle.

more science later..

fidel castro out! suri van sornsen in! my woman on tv!!!



FYI: im selling some more junk on ebay.. buy buy buy

holy crap! this is NOT daniel day lewis, on the newest issue of conde nast's FN magazine even if it would have been well worthy the oscar sitting on the window shelf at bar and books. rumours has it, governor arnie smokes occasionally cigars there. wich is bad, i mean the smoking part. i feel obligated to say this, once and for all here, you know - in a way directly speaking to my positive karma and my mum's school kids, mum you hear!! true storiez those brats seem to enjoy reading my blog :) looking at the gallery. mentioning that i had a cigarette in the hand in one of my pictures. asking if i was a smoker? and that gives me hope folks, you know.. a new generation asking questions? so kids, i dont smoke. and smoking is bad. i am nice. that's how i do.

oh world, i'm coming back to you. not forever. i got some more complaints by other readers, asking why i wont not travel anymore?! now that i was pretty much static here in new york for the last year!

well, i just want to say that, the fashion business is a big mess and competition ego-excess. my own personal experience and amusement if you may say so, was always more importand to me. modeling was a free way to travel, see the world, collect experience and hopefully grow as a human beeing - NOT, running after castings, the industry or money in generally; true this kind of thinking hasn't gotten me very far if you look at my credit. but its still alot better than smoking cigars!!

truth is, we went through hell, yes hell! coming here and all. yeah, i thought its all going to be so easy! now after a year time, going through all that crap! i am looking back and say wow well fucking done tim. you have learned so much in this whole year, you built a mini existence, learnd more about love and life than in all those other years roaming around the world. partying with the lame model crowd. gears seem to be shifting, finally - and its about time you people start giving some fucking kudos for that.

hi kids, this pic i shot earlyer today on west broadway..

that pic i made at my local train stop in brooklyn. scary, huh?


a lot happened since we last spoke. sadly i only had my cameraphone to proof it. new york is floded with posters of my wife's new movie 10'000 b.c. thats about to be in cinemas march 8th here in USA. i'll post some better pictures later. anyways things looks LOVELY!!!!!!!!! check on her blog. she told me, yeah sure i would like to update more, but im way too bizy giving tv-internviews and shooting magazin covers! walk it baby!!! i love you!!!

hello, im currently selling my pants on ebay. ins't that great? here a piece of text i found about self-absorbed internet addiction. enjoy!

a sad reflection?

Esquire recently ran a feature about ‘New Narcissism’. While it ran smoothly with not too many bumps there were points in it that need to be addressed. Are we becoming too self-obsessed? Especially with the advent of the computer age – or more pertinently the Internet age. Because I can’t stop reading myself, and if I see my name written somewhere I can’t not click on it. A picture of me… well fuck it, I just can’t help myself!

Look at those images of you looking devillishly foxy, or more worryingly ones somebody has put there of you from a backward angle with your dulap hanging down like an old man's ballsack - the devious, sweet malcontents (but luckily you can untag it so your "friends" will never see it). We used to cultivate our own personal image and look in a mirror and like or hate who we saw – and that would possibly differ according to how much we’d drunk or which drugs our friends gave us. It’s a beautiful, or grotesque, or more reasonably demented picture we’re forced to have of ourselves. Now it’s like Dorian Gray embracing chaos theory.

In the old days, when men were men and women made you chips on a Saturday afternoon and warned you about the wrong type of girls, all we had were photos. And lovely though they were, they were blurry and unfocused, strangely hued looking like stills from early Australian soap operas. And you’d definitely spend not too much time looking at them. Me, playing football when I was nine, me eating a pasty, me in a group of grissly, stupid looking old fucks who've since died, me practicing mouth to mouth with my Uncle Kevin…

My late-teenage life was spent knocking off R.E. to pick hallucinogens, be chased by farmers with pitchforks then go home to embrace Pan and listen to Echo and the Bunnymen and Steve Vai. It doesn’t quite compare with what my teenage cousin is doing, trying to get me to sign up to Bebo and asking me if Sonic the Hedgehog was a really good game when I was young. He is also a new narcissist, in that while he's a sprouty top-lipped wee urchin who is unpleasant to behold, he is still a self-important little despot; a ruler of his solitary universe. Bullied often, and almost entirely devoid of social skills, are we not creating a nation of sociopaths? Spending your evenings walking around graveyards smashed out of your mind on mushroom tea seems a much healthier way to misspend your childhood.

“Narcissus was a handsome Greek youth who rejected the desperate advances of the nymph Echo,” claims Wikipedia, “As punishment, he was doomed to fall in love with his own reflection in a pool of water. Unable to consummate his love, Narcissus pined away and changed into the flower that bears his name.”

Which is way more interesting than sending someone a virtual flower or a fucking fishtank on Valentine's day. I think I’m going to have to take a step back from my computer.

OMFG dot com! the sky is still gray 'round here. a sharp breeze is blowing around the corners. nyc is shiffering tonight, temperatures will drop below -10degrees celcius. our man on the scene..

thats right, i havent updated you about my modeling activities in a while. it seemed other topics had emidiate priority in this blog. like ufo over texas?! however i finished shooting a story, for japanese high porfile mag "ocean" this week-end. to be out on newstands in japan and around the world. september 2008. the photos are made by star photographer tiziano magni. also conde nast's FN magazine is about to come out this week with 10 pages of fashion stuff with me in it!

i was going through my little blue agenda from last year 2007 prior to writing here. seeing what i have done "today" exactly one year ago. it was all scribbled like spaghetti... and made no sense to me at all. i guess thats a reflection picture, how it must have looked like in my head at that time. incredible. i still cant beleve, i held on to it! im still in new york. did not give up. gosh i leand so much about life.. and love. and the things i've always been preaching and never know how to describe. dont get fooled by the stupide presentation. thoughts become things.

im too bizy to post something today. so i thought i post this, its a poam by my dear friend niklass. word to nicklass.

the decline

The going get tough, the tough get debt
Don't pay attention, pay the rent
Next of kins pay for your sins
A little faith should keep us safe

Save us
The human, existence
Is failing, resistance
Essential, the future
Written off, the odds are
Astronomically against us
Only moron and genius
Would fight a losing battle
Against the super ego
When giving in is so damn comforting

And so we go, on with our lives
We know the truth, but prefer lies
Lies are simple, simple is bliss
Why go against tradition when we can
Admit defeat, live in decline
Be the victim of our own design
The status quo, built on suspect
Why would anyone stick out their neck?

Fellow members of
Club "We've Got Ours"
I'd like to introduce you to our host
He's got his, and I've got mine
Meet the decline.

Yep - this really seems like they are finaly coming. or maybe just some newfangled blimp-ron-paul-stunt? i've been looking skywards for UFO's my entire life, and i've never seen one. not one. always wanted too, though. i'm still looking...

news lady: "Why don't you take your glasses off?"
kid: "Mmm... nah. Nah. I'll leave these on. I like them."
news lady: "Take of those glasses and apologise to us."
kid: "I'll say sorry, but I'm not taking off my glasses."
news lady (indignant): "Why not?"
kid: "Cos... they're famous."
news lady: "I suggest you go away and take a long hard look at yourself."
kid: "I have. Everyone has. They love it."

oh lawwdy! we haven't got enough clauset space, so i am selling some vera wang ballerina fats. its on ebay, here.

buy, buy, buy...

another, story - maybe of more clutivated nature, is this next one: my old man has given me this book "the kite runner" 2 years ago as a christmas present! after reading it, it has done me great service elevating my a/c on the window shelf, among other books like the nyc yellow pages. now that i have almost forgotten it.. they came out with the movie, wich i happend to see last nite. big fat crocodile tears rolled down my cheeks. i think thats the best movie of all times... dont get fooled by the trailer. this film is bloody good!

go watch it!

tim

and the oscar goes to... yeah thats right bling everyone. i delved today into nbc's todayshow, earlyer today - they picked me up with a stretch limo in brooklyn, how cool is that? i am poor like a church mouse and unsure where next months rent is coming from, but so what? i reached out to all 50 states today and i think the rest of the world. I WENT THERE.

non bogus!

tim

Things to Improve in 2008: You believe in freedom of speech, until someone says something that offends you. You suddenly give a damn about border integrity, because the automated voice system at your pharmacy asked you to press 9 for Spanish. You cling to every scrap of bullshit you can find to support your ludicrous belief system, and reject all empirical evidence to the contrary. You know the difference between patriotism and nationalism -- it's nationalism when foreigners do it. You hate anyone who seems smarter than you. You care more about zygotes than actual people. You love to blame people for their misfortunes, even if it means screwing yourself over. You still think Republicans favor limited government. Your knowledge of politics and government are dwarfed by your concern for Britney Spears' children. You think buying Chinese goods stimulates our economy. You think you're going to get universal health care. You tolerate the phrase "enhanced interrogation techniques." You think the government is actually trying to improve education. You think watching CNN makes you smarter. You think two parties is enough. You can't spell. You think $9 trillion in debt is manageable. You believe in an afterlife for the sole reason that you don't want to die. You think lowering taxes raises revenue. You think the economy's doing well. You're an idiot.

Thasssright! another year is about to pass by, i still cant descide if i shall go to time square on midnight - witness the big bang for the first time or not? - its bloody cold, and those damn tourists! hehe..

happy 2008!!!!

here another photo of my sisters new goblin. pretty awesome! eyes on the little bugger! nuts! yAaaaah, happy holidays everyone! i'm excited about the holidays this year. it's crazy.i bought an awful expensive christmas tree.

lets see, hmmm.. what is worth talking about? right! i've cried hard and then laughed until i cried again. here is why: my airplane was caught in the middle of a terrible snowstorm. its true. i left from newark (new jearsy, close to nyc airport, for all foreigners) at 6.25am and was ment to arrive in milwakee at 8.45am - i did not arrive there until midnight. here is why: so, while we where approaching milwakee airport they closed the runway because of heavy snowfall. we circled, in major turbulence for the next 30 mins in the air waiting... for them to re-open. after a while we started to run low on fuel. so, they sent us to mineapolis - god forsaken, i hung around in the restaurant for the next 5h. waiting for them to refill and the storm to pass by. btw. this is where i met the coolest guy ever jon paris his name! the man, is a musician, seen hendrix and the doors live! so we talked and talked, about politics and stuff and i came up with some great ideas, he though!! i.e. i said there should be exchange programs for presidents that dont like each other, so they could learn from each others... right? makes sense? and so we talked and talked about the reunion of led zeppelin it was awesome! around 2pm they decidet to make another attempt!! i made all phone calls promesing, everyone i was supposed to work with, i would be there in the next 2h. i mean yeah, everything looked real good, until we approached the landing strip again! the second we wanted to land they closed the airport... so we circled.. and circled.. until.. right, we started to run low on fuel! this time they sent us to green bay (foreigners, dont ask me where this is) anyways, thats where we landed. to refill and wait for the storm to stop! at this stage i have given up already on my asignment in milwakee! i just wanted to fly back home to new york. i talked to jon paris, i asked him if we should rent a car perhaps? drive? but wtf!? how long would that take us from green bay? in that moment the captain announced we would try for one last time. this time we made it! after a 20h of lame ass delay - and ofcours i missed the returnflight to new york. all other flights where grounded. so i thought i better find a cheap hotel and head back to new york the next day. i was lucky. i found the last bed avail. in a country inn hotel 5 mins drive from the airport. the hotel promised to cover the taxi fee from the airport. however the taxi driver had something different in mind. strange man, locked the doors! and drove me somewhere else. very strange.. it must be something in the water? sulfur? farts? i was just about to call 911.. when he changed his mind and opend the doors for me to flee. so much for my unlucky trip to wisconsin..

but i mean what the hell! live is a surprise!!

enjoy!

tim

hello you all, i just added some new photos, both - from my phone camera and fuji 40fd to the "snapshot gallery". i will keep on shooting things, as they are coming my way. won't make any rash promises though, we all know what happened to that boy who kept yelling about a wolf.

so... to the other stuff. things are going fine here... you know. the appartement is growing and growing every day. we got new free furniture from a friend today, wich was great. the weather is getting colder, i've bought a warm jacket... yeah you see, pretty much hangin in there... beeing patient. i've been here now for almost a year, i have accepted things being the way they are. i've pretty much come to the conclusion that; to make it here in new york - these days, you have to work your hands bloody or be a great bullshitter and salesman (that's pretty much what it comes down to, folks).

sorry if I just had a moment there. i'm over it... but i mean that's what blogs are for, right? tomorow i will be shooting for the new york times, that should be on newsstands nov. 22nd! dont miss it!

tim

Hello. The autumn months are never a calm time in America. Autumn is a very Traditional period, a time of strong Rituals and the celebrating of strange annual holidays like Halloween and Satanism and the fateful Harvest Moon, which can have effects on some people.
I've been creative on alot of new projects and maintaining older ones. new york is a great inspiration if your an artist. I just have to walk outside my door and good ideas are waiting for me on every corner. In generally it seams that the struggle - coming here and all that is paying off. i mean this literally. and ofcours also speaking with my heart. So all is good - and i thought its worth mentioning that, with all the crazieness in this country.

Look at this new iTunes Visualizer. I’ve never been a fan of visualizers in the past, probably because they typically look like something from an early 70’s sci-fi TV show (and not in a good way). In contrast this thing is all smooth organic 3-d motion and lovely glowing orbs.

enjoy!

again, sorry for my long abstinence! i feel like everytime i post, i keep on saying this, as the first thing. And you are not the only one, i keep on telling this also to friends, family and people that knew me for a long time - but hey, its so much to do here, its unreal; and its hard for some to understand - i guess, when your save at home, you have a regular job enough funds and such - and while you sit in your office, im in the subway, and while your in lunchbrake im on the stepps of unionsquare eating a bagle that i premade at home, and while your out partying with your friends, im probbably working at a bar, and while your in the office again... im at home in my trainers dooing graphic design - in new york city. ya diig! i dont know exactly whats my point here, but dont hate!!

gotta rush, watch the video if you like! so a few things mentioned above might even make sense in a few years time. dark shit, then.

tim

alright, alright, fine! i stop what i was dooing for a minute - i'll stop kissing my wifes cheeks, i'll stop dooing castings, i'll stop designing, i'll stop taking pictures with my new camera, i'll stop sketching, i'll stop having great ideas, i'll stop decorating our new place in brooklyn, i'll stop telling my lifes story, i'll stop bringing my clothes to the lundry service, i'll stop forcing myself into the gym, i'll stop worrieing about the fact that this month rent's due, i'll stop bartending, i'll stop reading about all the wrongs in the world - i'll stop everything for a moment. to bring you a moment of silence, a moment of marvel and look with amazement and astonishment upon the miracle of life! my sister brought today 3.44 pm - a healthy baby-boy into this world!! i hope to see you soon, till then i blow you a kiss!! i love you.

having said all that, i continue with my habits mentioned above: after returning to the land of the free, (the great big USA) about a month ago, many things have changed. we moved to brooklyn with all our belongings (1 bed and the rest of our stuff wrapped into garbage bags) - and we started building.... again. in a small cosi apartement in brooklyn, every week that went by, the place started to look more like home. we tryed to snap some cheap things from the salvation army, like a table and chairs, wich we where going to overpaint! but it turned out to be a scam, and in some cases even more expensive than new things you would find at ikea. for an instance they had a 15 year old stinky couch going for 400 bucks! pfffff!

so this, iraq is for sale - very desturbing .take a look. keep an eye open. come see me soon. i can't wait.

brooklyn love,

tim

hello people, im still alive, yeah!! as you all might have noticed or not - my blog has been experiencing some serous troubles!! the old server crashed somehow, said my friend keith from efx!! im currently using a modified version of google's blogspot template, wich runs to be honest quite nicely... check it!!

so is this; we moved 3 days ago from our place in harlem to our new place in brooklyn. what a day.. we got up at 7am to be at the u-haul van rental place in time! that way we could avoid heavy traffic in manhatten, and also avoid crazy taxi drivers, since it's my wifes first time driving in new york! yeah yeah i dont have a drivers license.. but thats an other long story! go mingle! so yeah, on the u-haul website it said something like: bring a drivers license and a valid form of id. so we did! who could have though that if you have an international drivings license (not an american) - you also would have to bring your passport! so we went all the way back home to fetch the passports. by the time we finaly got the van, rush-hour traffic started to kick in - by the time we arrived to our old place in harlem, to get the furniture out of the 5th floor (no elevator) the worse tropical storm started to pour down!! however, we made it.. in one piece to brooklyn! and u-haul gave us a 30$ re-imbursment.. what else, oh yeah i have a budget of $2.50 a day this week, which will be fun. stupid security deposits!

more later.

tim